Last week I went on an adventure. I drove 7 hours into the dessert for a wilderness immersion that kicks off an 8 month spiritual and personal development program. As I drove into the unknown a level of fear and anxiety washed over me with an intensity I’d never known. In the midst of a full-on panic attack I pulled over at the nearest public area, got out of my car, and sat outside. My whole body was shaking, my head was spinning, and I felt like I might faint. I thought at least in this public space I’d be cared for if I did pass out and it’d be a lot safer than driving. After nearly half an hour of breath work, praying, and pulling out every other tool in my ‘nervous system chill out’ toolbox, I realized I had to make a choice. I could listen to the fear, turn around and drive 5 hours home – or I could get in the car, and keep going. I knew that I was just miles away from losing cell service for the remainder of my journey, with another 2 hours to drive up and over mountains (I’m afraid of heights), and into the unfamiliar landscape of Death Valley, to meet up with women I’d never met (hence the fear). I only had about two hours of daylight left, so I needed to make a choice fast. I choose to keep climbing.
This adventure taught me MANY lessons that I will share with you in posts to come, but some of my most profound, blissful, healing, and transformative moments all came after I made the same decision: keep climbing. I was often uncomfortable, scared, and completely at odds with myself, but I continued to chose the path forward, and I was never disappointed.
I’m sure you are facing a decision right now, and you may be wondering if you should do the thing that scares you and makes you uncomfortable. I say yes. I know that may seem a bit reckless, as I don’t know what it is you’re facing – but the truth is all great things require you to take a leap of faith. You will never get where you want to be without doing things that scare the hell out of you. My prayer for you is that you find the peace to listen to your inner guidance, and the courage to keep climbing. I’ll tell you what,
the view from the top is worth it.
Wishing you a blessed day. All my love,